Last week, I was lead climbing an overhung route. For those of you who don’t know this, lead (or sport) climbing is when you clip the rope into pre-set carabiners as you climb up the wall. This requires you to pull up rope from the belayer as you climb. This is in contrast to top…

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Boredom, Desire, Jealously, Rejection, Disappointment, Betrayal, Grief, Anger, Hatred, Fear, Sadness, Loneliness, Disapproval, Hurt, Pain… These are all things that are difficult for me to be with. They are things I spent most of my life avoiding… Distracting myself from… Running from… Suppressing. Yes, I tried every strategy I could think of to not be…

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It was the second day of my first three-day silent retreat. I felt like I couldn’t take it anymore. Too much silence. Too many unwanted thoughts. Too many unwanted emotions. Too much discomfort. Too much pain. It was time to plan my escape. I figured I could sneak out after lunch without anyone noticing. I…

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