Blizzards and Break Downs

It’s blizzarding (is that even a word?) outside right now.

We just lost power and I’m sitting in front of our gas fireplace writing to you in my journal.

Yesterday, it was 60 degrees and sunny and today… well, let’s just say that we got smacked in the face with winter again!

Rain, wind, snow, cold temps… they came barreling back this morning.

It seems fitting given what’s present in my life right now.

Life always seems to have a way with supporting me in my own growth and transformation.

Let me take you back to this weekend and explain a bit.

Saturday, I had what felt like a break down.

And… like any good breakdown, there were multiple factors at play.

I’ll spare you the details and just say a storm had been brewing and it showed up over the weekend.

Yes… there was a storm brewing in me!

My frustration, anger, resentment, and fear had been brewing over the previous week and finally culminated in getting the best of me.

And of course, it happened at the top of a mountain😊.

I found myself at the pinnacle of a short hike crying my eyes out.

I was tired.

I was tired of trying to manage and control everything and everyone around me.

I was fed up.

I was fed up with people not behaving like I thought they "should".

I was ready.

I was ready to try on a different way of being with the world around me.

Yes… I was willing and ready to let go.

I became willing to let go of working so hard to manage and control everything and everyone around me, and instead focus on the only thing I felt (and knew deep down) that I could control, which was myself and my reaction and response to the world around me.

In that moment, it felt as though a giant weight had been lifted off of me.

I immediately felt lighter and more at ease.

I felt like I could breathe again.

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference."

Yes… this has become my new mantra.

So… as I sit here in front of the fire place with no internet or electricity looking out the window at the blizzard taking place outside of me, I feel at peace.

While I am not in control… of most things anyway😉, I feel empowered knowing that I can control how I react and respond to the things that happen to (or for - depending on how you look at it😉) me.

And, in this moment… I’m responding from a place of acceptance and peace.

Which feels much better and more generative to me.

How about you?

How are you responding and reacting to what life gives you?

What could you let go of in order to open up a little more peace?

Here’s to letting go for the sake of greater peace and serenity!

In Ultimate Support of You,

​Katharine

PS After writing this post in my journal, I laid down and took a nap. It seemed like the most creative response to what was happening😉. Upon awakening, the power was still out so I decided to transfer my journal post to a word document since I still had some battery left on my laptop. Half way through my typing, the power and internet was magically restored. Perfect timing! Sometimes a reboot (or break down!) is all that’s needed😊!

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