I’m in my hometown this week spending time with family over the Thanksgiving holiday.
It’s an annual tradition.
My mom’s side of the family gathers every year in Charleston, WV to spend the holiday.
We’ve been doing this since as far back as I can remember.
It’s a time when I get to see my grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins, and siblings.
It’s a time to reconnect.
It’s a time to celebrate and appreciate family.
It’s a time to pause and be grateful.
It hasn’t always been this way.
There was a time in my life when I harbored deep resentment towards my family.
I blamed my family for not meeting the expectations I had of them.
I blamed them for my struggles.
I blamed them for my pain.
This resentment created distance and separation (both physically and emotionally).
My resentments kept me isolated and alone.
It resulted in a lot of hurt to myself… and my family.
It wasn’t a pretty time in my life.
I made some poor choices that caused harm to not only myself, but to those around me… including my family.
Over the past 14+ years, I’ve worked hard to repair the damage that I caused.
I’ve worked hard to show up... even when it is hard and I don't want to.
I’ve worked hard to look at myself… instead of pointing the finger at others.
I’ve worked hard to forgive… and let myself be forgiven.
I’ve worked hard to make it right.
For the most part, I feel at peace.
I feel at peace with myself and with my family.
I feel at peace with the (poor) decisions I made, and what I’ve done to try to make it right.
I feel grateful for the forgiveness I've received, and the chance to rebuild.
Yes… I feel grateful.
I feel grateful for the imperfection of it all.
As I take a moment to pause and reflect on where I am on this journey, I feel grateful for where I find myself today.
How about you? Where do you find yourself on your journey today? What can you be grateful for as you pause and reflect today?
As always, sending you support and love on this wild adventure!
In Ultimate Support of You!
PS In addition to visiting over a good meal, our family traditions involve a lot of other activity as well. Most of us ran or walked the local Turkey Trot, and then delivered meals before we gathered for our own Thanksgiving meal. There is also usually a game of tag football and soccer that takes place as well as board games, and a few games of ping pong. I think this year we may try Pickleball too. Yes... we are an active bunch! Wishing you a wonderful holiday season this year as you take part in your own traditions, or create new ones for yourself!